and then, sometimes it dawnnes on you ~

the name Dawnne came about a long time ago, back when i was at the Presidio of Monterey at the Russian Language School. i coined it as a cognitive antonym to “dawn”.

of course, a simple google will readily show that there are no unique thoughts, and that several people named Dawnne are older than i.

yeah okay, and they all seem to be female. shut up.

before The Elder and Unknown was born, her mother and i made a list of names. (The Elder and Unknown) Rochelle Dawnne, a combination of names i selected, won out. when i met my natural parents in that same year and changed my name, “Dawnne” became a literal attachment to The Elder and Unknown, who was born a month after my change of name.

when The Elder and Unknown was four, i was asked to give up my rights to her so that her step-father could adopt her and place her on his insurance. as i’ve already noted here, that seemed to be the best thing i could do for her, so i did. when he adopted her, however, “Dawnne” was dropped from her name.

but that attachment, which was always subjectively tangential in its own way, was never broken.

she hasn’t chosen to respond to mom’s last communication for several days. since she corresponds via her computer at work, that could be for any number of reasons, so we’re not reading anything into it.

irony of ironies, the Spouse-Unit has a conference in San Antonio next week. i will be going with her, as we’ve never had the chance for me to show her around my old stomping grounds. it won’t be like going home, though, considering all that happened in what seems like so long ago. i wasn’t Dawnne back then. and heck, Six Flags, Sea World, and the huge Mercado that used to be just a quiet Riverwalk weren’t even built until after i had moved away.

it’ll be another excercise in tempered impatience, i suppose. i have interesting karma. i’m still undecided as to whether or not i should be looking forward to the next lifetime….